Hey Buggy,
I'm still missing you bunches. I wanted you to know I'm thinking about you today. This time last year I dressed you as a little bear and painted a black nose on you. I wanted to dress you as a little devil this year. I would rather dress you as a little devil than have everyone think of you as an angel. We could have gotten tons of candy.
Its hard to believe that its nearing a year since your accident. December is not that far away. I talked to the lawyers who are investigating your accident for me and dada so we can know what exactly went wrong at the hospital and they are still working on it. I did find out they are pretty certain something went wrong and it wasn't the accident that is why you aren't here..they are sure it was something at the hospital. The hospital took you away from me and now I can't dress you as a little devil.
I can still see your smile in my mind. I miss it but I will remember it forever.
I do have some better news than I've had in a long time though, in july 2012 you may be a big brother. I wish you could be here for it. No child will ever replace you though, I do want you to know that. Please help me watch over your little sibling...I know you love them as much as I do. Mamum will be having the first appointment to check your sibling in a couple days (on thursday) so they can check to see if everything is okay. After that they will use a machine probably within a few weeks to see how big your brother or sister is and make double sure they are okay.
I'm so scared that I'm going to lose them too. I still haven't gotten over losing you...I don't think I ever will...
I love you so much
Thinking about you this halloween
Love always
Your Mamum
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