My Baby Buggy
Another month has gone by without you. I miss you so much. The weather is starting to warm and there have been days lately I would have loved to take you to your favorite spot in the park. Sometimes it hurts so much to think of the things we'd be doing right now that I just lay on the couch you used to play on and kind of shut down staring out your window. I like to look out that window and see what you saw. You loved watching the cars and trees and the bushes. People would wave at you sometimes. I miss you...
I built your aquarium up a bit. Theres baby fish in there now since one of the mollies mumum bought had them a couple weeks ago. I'd like to put another plant in there, you never saw it with plants but I keep it pretty now and stocked with mollies in memory of you. Its in the corner your toys used to be you know. Your loaches are still alive and well in there too. I wish you could see it. Somedays I imagine you infront of it with that big smile of yours as you watch the fish.
On days like today I just want to curl up and cry but I'm going to try my best not to. You adada got a new job which he'll be starting week after next. After his orientation he'll be home nightly. I hope it works out and wish you could be here for it. You used to miss him so much and he would miss you.
You used to love the month of April. You got two cakes this month, one for mamum's birthday and one for yours. I'm still going to make a cake for your memorial this month I think...just the way you 'likey likey'd it. A nice marble home cooked cake with chocolate frosting and crushed m&ms on the top. Maybe everyone can get diabetes just looking at it and remember how energetic you were. I will still make your cake!
I love you my bug, always will.
Your Mamum
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