Hey Buggy
I'm sorry that I haven't written you in a couple days, I needed a bit of distance from the computer. I've missed writting you but I have things to tell you about. I tried getting that puppy I was telling you about the day before the accident. The puppy you saw and smiled at in the picture didn't work out. He didn't appreciate Zander, Tonks or your Dada. I didn't want your family to be hurt so I took him back and your puppy and kitty and Dada are safe. I did get a different puppy that you would love. I drove a 5 hour round trip to get him and thought of the smile you would have on your face seeing this puppy. We named him Dobby. You remember Dobby don't you? From Harry Potter. He has been keeping Mamum busy and its helped to break the silence and lack of chaos about the house. It also gives me mess to clean up.
I was able to make breakfast today. Little by little I'm begining to cook again though its still very difficult. I even washed your table today...that was really difficult but your handprints are still on the couch and on the covered window. All in time but those are for another day. Your Dada and I took the carseat out of the car the other day just in case so it wouldn't get ruined by the luck I seem to have and it is now safely in your room. That was really difficult and your puppy (Zander) was really upset about it. I think he was hoping you would come back. Sometimes he seems to understand and sometimes he doesn't, not completely unlike everyone else. Your Zander mourns you quite a bit some days but he is at least eating now. He will be okay so I don't want you to worry about him.
I burned my hand lightly under some hot water by accident last night. It brought back the wonder about how much pain you were in which really tore me up inside. I know you aren't in pain anymore but whatever powers that be know it hurt me to know you hurt at all. I just hope that it didn't hurt too bad, I just hope your brain told it not to hurt. I also got a letter from the health department telling me I missed your shot you were do for this month. It would have been the last shot you needed for awhile and it stirred up some rather uncomfortable emotions. I'm supposed to be watching you grow...not learning how to cope with life without you. I guess I don't have a choice in that though and I need to continue to take care of your family in honor of you.
I love and miss you so much my little buggy...always will
Your Mamum
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